Today I had my monthly check-in with my therapist, and she asked me this question today. She asked if I was having trouble when I looked in the mirror: did I still see myself at my heaviest or could I objectively look at myself and see the weight loss. She wanted to make sure that I won't be looking at a "thin" version of myself but still seeing the old fat me.
While I 100% understand this, I explained to her that my problem has always been the opposite: I never realized how big I was until I'd catch my reflection in a store window, or not be able to fit into my Dad's sweatshirt, or try and squeeze through a small space and get stuck.
It's funny; that hindered me before, because I never truly saw how big I was, so it never really pushed me into doing anything about my weight. It took a health problem for me to do something about it. But it's a benefit now.
However, for people who have the opposite problem, they have the hindrance now, having to overcome the mind-game of still seeing yourself as you were before, as opposed to how you are now. Two sides of one coin.
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